Fear

To me Fear is the fundamental root cause of both , advancing slow in life or staying stagnant at all, but surprisingly, in contrast, it is the reason for being on the right track as well.

when connecting dots, i can relate that i was afraid to lose something I’m not sure whether or not even had back then. Keeping quite on all that injustice and oppression which surrounded me as a child, instigating fear of myself or any loved ones being punished in the long run, for not doing anything was equally significant in comparison to doing something and getting even worse as an immediate result, so the options were; either do something that makes you forget your surroundings and unknowingly wait for the moment that was almost sure to hit back probably sometimes in the future, or take action now….and avert everything that created this fear in waiting, face the consequences whatsoever they may be, but appease this internal conflict consuming the very identity i believed every human-being was born to create and defend. Luckily, I chose to be doing the later, however no matter how minute or gigantic, but this unknown loss we perhaps all get intimidated by…. remained.

i don’t know how this piece of understanding or experience supports you, but while contemplating this complex tug of war between “Now or Then” , I’ve been trying to understand factors that make us choose the right option at the right time, so no matter how vague or discreet this outcome has probably been, but either as a proof of my innocence or suggestively inadequate focus or understanding to this day…i am sure..it shall serve its purpose……may be something more… but I wondered what made me take bigger and bold risks as time passed by…..and came up with only one thing….

I prognosticated Fears of Tomorrow Today..for better or worse than my contemporaries…yet did it.